I just woke up. Heh.

I'm supposed to go to school today at 9 to meet up with Mommy, Jill, and Mau. Woah. Its 8:41.. haha. I have to take a bath now.

I had the nicest dream. I dreamt that my mom came home from the States.. and she surprised me in school. I was crying my eyes out. I dreamt that he was there too.. just watching the whole thing unravel.

Just when its sembreak, his phone just had to disappear.. Sheesh. I'm not used to this I guess. I was used to seeing him everyday.. even on sundays.. and now. Sheesh. No word at all. Except for that offline message thing in yahoo telling me he was at a friend's house the whole day. Yeah. Whatever. I'm in a bitter mood. I need my release. I'm not a cig addict.. but when I'm feeling the utmost despair and desoluteness.. I need that damn cig break NOW. Fuck it.

You know that feeling when you wanna cry.. but then you just can't? So in the process.. your chest is so heavy.. its like.. confusing you even more. I better have something else to do later in school. I don't want to be depressed anymore.

GOtta go and shower man.:) Me smellin so beeeyuuuteeeefullleeee in 20 minutes.:)

Ciao.:)