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perfect.. just perfect.

2004-10-24T02:59:13Z

margauxie @ 2004-10-18T08:39:00

2004-10-18T00:49:37Z

I just woke up. Heh.

I'm supposed to go to school today at 9 to meet up with Mommy, Jill, and Mau. Woah. Its 8:41.. haha. I have to take a bath now.

I had the nicest dream. I dreamt that my mom came home from the States.. and she surprised me in school. I was crying my eyes out. I dreamt that he was there too.. just watching the whole thing unravel.

Just when its sembreak, his phone just had to disappear.. Sheesh. I'm not used to this I guess. I was used to seeing him everyday.. even on sundays.. and now. Sheesh. No word at all. Except for that offline message thing in yahoo telling me he was at a friend's house the whole day. Yeah. Whatever. I'm in a bitter mood. I need my release. I'm not a cig addict.. but when I'm feeling the utmost despair and desoluteness.. I need that damn cig break NOW. Fuck it.

You know that feeling when you wanna cry.. but then you just can't? So in the process.. your chest is so heavy.. its like.. confusing you even more. I better have something else to do later in school. I don't want to be depressed anymore.

GOtta go and shower man.:) Me smellin so beeeyuuuteeeefullleeee in 20 minutes.:)

Ciao.:)

margauxie @ 2004-10-17T23:38:00

2004-10-17T15:44:34Z

I just came home from watching "House of Flying Daggers."

Favorite part:

Mei: "You shouldn't have come back."
Jin: "I came back for you, my love."

What a nice movie.

I'm more low than ever.:'(

My heart.

2004-10-17T08:03:25Z

My heart's tearing apart.
I'm here left alone in the dark.
Just glimpses of you reassure me,
bits and pieces from my memory.

My heart's crying out loud.
Continuously screaming it all out.
Comfort is what it needs,
scared to where all this would lead.

My heart's calling out to you.
I pray that you hear it too.
Praying that you feel me as the wind blows through your face,
hoping your mind could feel the waves.

My heart's giving up the fight.
Weariness wraps around me so tight.
I look to the skies and blow you a kiss,
whisper "goodbye, you're the person that I will definitely miss."

Sigh. *looks down*

margauxie @ 2004-10-11T20:42:00

2004-10-11T12:45:20Z

R.I.P to christopher reeves.

You were a great man that showed the world that having a disability did not mean that life must stop right here and now. I believe God gave you a purpose to show that each and every person is a normal human being, complete with faults and everything, but amongst all that beauty.. God showed us that we're blessed enough to have a man to look up to in this world of ours.:)

May He send His angels to guide you back home.:)

Mwah.

margauxie @ 2004-09-30T17:36:00

2004-09-30T09:38:06Z

When you begin to touch your heart or let your heart be touched, you begin to discover that it's bottomless, that it doesn't have any resolution, that this heart is huge, vast, and limitless. You begin to discover how much warmth and gentleness is there, as well as how much space.
-- Pema Chodron

funny..:) yet true..

2004-09-22T11:42:38Z

You Know You're Filipino When....

Your middle name is your mother's maiden name.

Your parents call each other "Mommy" and "Daddy."

You have uncles and aunts named "Boy," "Girlie," or "Baby."

You have relatives whose nicknames consist of repeated syllables like "Jun-Jun," "Ling-Ling," and "Mon-Mon." Mine by the way was "Che-Che."

You call the parents of your friends and your own parents' friends "Tito" and "Tita."

You have four or five names.

You greet your elders by touching their hands to your forehead.

You always kiss your relatives on the cheek whenever you enter or leave the room.

You follow your parents' house rules even if you are over 18.

You live with your parents until and at times even after you're married.

You decorate your dining room wall with a picture of the "Last Supper."

You keep your furniture wrapped in plastic or covered with blankets.

You have a Sto. Nino shrine in your living room.

You have a piano that no one plays.

You keep a tabo in your bathroom.

You use Vicks Vapor rub as an insect repellant.

You eat with your hands.

You eat more than three times a day.

You think a meal is not a meal without rice.

You think sandwiches are snacks, not meals.

Your dining table has a merry-go-round (lazy Susan) in the middle.

You bring baon to work everyday.

Your pantry is never without Spam, Vienna sausage, corned beef, and sardines.

You love to eat daing or tuyo.

You prop up one knee while eating.

ou eat your meal with patis, toyo, suka, banana catsup, or bagoong.

Your tablecloths are stained with toyo circles.

You love sticky desserts and salty snacks.

You eat fried Spam and hot dogs with rice.

You eat mangoes with rice--with great GUSTO!

You love "dirty" ice cream.

You love to eat, yet often manage to stay slim.

You put hot dogs in your spaghetti.

Everything you eat is sauted in garlic, onion, and tomatoes.

You order a "soft drink" instead of soda.

You hang a rosary on your car's rear view mirror.

You get together with family at a cemetery on All Saint's Day to eat, drink, and tell stories by your loved ones' graves.

You play cards or mahjong and drink beer at funeral wakes.

You think Christmas season begins in October and ends in January.

Your second piece of luggage is a balikbayan box.

You've mastered the art of packing a suitcase to double capacity.

You collect items from airlines, hotels, and restaurants as "souvenirs."

You feel obligated to give pasalubong to all your friends and relatives each time you return from a trip.

You use paper foot outlines when buying shoes for friends and relatives.

You're a fashion victim.

You can convey 30 messages with your facial expression.

You hold your palms together in front of you and say "excuse, excuse" when you pass in between people or in front of the TV.

You ask for the bill at a restaurant by making a rectangle in the air.

You cover your mouth when you laugh.

You respond to a "Hoy!" or a "Pssst!" in a crowd.

You'll answer "Malapit lang!"--no matter the distance--when asked how far away a place is located.

Goldilocks is more than a fairy tale character to you.

You refer to power interruptions as "brownouts."

You love to use the following acronyms: CR for comfort room, DI for dance instructor, DOM for dirty old man, TNT for tago nang tago, KJ for kill joy, KSP for kulang sa pansin, OA for over-acting, TL for true love, BF for boyfriend and GF for girlfriend.

You say "rubber shoes" instead of sneakers, "ball pen" instead of pen, "stockings" instead of pantyhose, "pampers" instead of diapers, "ref" or "prijider" instead of refrigerator, "Colgate" instead of toothpaste, "canteen" instead of cafeteria, and "open" or "close" instead of turn on or turn off (as in the lights).

You use an umbrella for shade on hot summer days.

You like everything imported or "state-side."

You love ballroom dancing, bowling, pusoy, mah jong, billiards, and karaoke.

You have a relative who is a nurse.

When you're in a restaurant, you wipe your plate and utensils before using them.

You can squeeze 15 passengers into your five seater car without a second thought.

You wave a pom-pom on a stick around the food to keep the flies away.

You always ring a doorbell twice, assuming that the first ring was not heard.

You let the phone ring twice before answering, lest you appear overly eager.

Your other piece of luggage is a balikbayan box.

You use a rock to scrub yourself in the bath or shower.

You're proud to be Filapino - and you pass these jokes on to all your Filipino friends!

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2004-09-18T10:48:16Z

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Senti, Tired, Restless and other stuff.. Ready to combust any minute now.

2004-08-29T08:02:22Z

[Listening to: Wherever You Are - Southborder]

As all of you know.. I'm single. Hahaha.

As people with conquests come towards me, a small thought comes to mind.. "Could he be the ONE?" Usually, the answer is NO. He's not like this, he's not like that, etc. One good thing though, I'm still young.:) I have more coming for me.. But I do know that somewhere out there, God has given me SOMEONE.. Someone that I will end up growing old with. And to that someone.. this song is entirely for you.

i love to see the oceans beauty..

and the moon that shines above.

alone in the sand looking at the stars..

wishing someday i will find true love..

would it be nice to see the morning?

with the one you love the most?

would it be nice to say goodnight?
to the one you hold so close?

to your heart, to your heart..

the wind that blows the dove

is the wind that blows my love

hope it'll find its way to you

wherever you are

i love to sit in fields of green..

looking deeply through the sky.

watching birds as they flap by..

HOPING SOMEDAY, FAITH WILL BRING ME TRUE LOVE..

would it be nice to hold someone
so dear and near your heart?

would it be nice to hear those words
"I LOVE YOU" from the one
that you love, that you love?

id love to see myself oneday
in the arms of someone
who will share his life with me
selflessly..

someday, you will find your way

the wind that blows the dove..

is the wind that blows my love.

hope it'll find its way to you..

wherever you are..

wherever you... are.

Our finals for English is to recite a poem or the lyrics of a LOVE song that you'll end up singing the chorus at the end. As my cousin said, "It won't be hard for you, it'll just be a walk in the park." True. Not wanting to sound concieted though.. But, I'm a bit apprehensive.. I don't know why. I'm doing the song up there by the way. It describes what I'm feeling as of the moment. So yeah..:) The lyrics is so like me.. i write my poems sort of like that.. My old ones by the way.. which are lost.. gone with the wind.. BLAH. But yeah.. no wonder I love this song so much. I have it in constant play. Its the only song playing in my winamp. Mwahahahaa. Addicted.

I have so many things to do right now. Irritated to the core. Check it out:

I'm currently doing a NCP (Nursing Care Plan), composed of 6 diagnoses.. sheesh.

I have to study in a while for pain and oxygenation. Exam for pain is TOMORROW.. Oxygenation is on FRIDAY.. Wakonga.

I have to recopy all of my messy notes to my wonderful, super neat, and lovely notebook.

I have to finish my article on capping.. I keep on forgetting to give it to Janice.. my colleague in Aesculapian.. the school's newspaper.

I have to find another place to store all the newspapers accumulated for the fundraising of my batch in Lingkod ER, because the rats in the accounting office apparently likes the taste of paper.

Which reminds me that I have to bring newspapers everyday now.

I still need to make new steps for the cheering..

I need to write a small write up about me and print a nice picture of myself for the LER auction. Yes I agreed to be auctioned.. Its so wrong. I really do hope the person that wins this silly thing is cute. Hahaha. This is so bad. Hate it hate it hate it.

What else?

I have to study some more.. :(

I have to find the broadway dvd and see if its suitable for a talent showcase at a pageant. Wouldn't you like to know? hahahaha.

I have to figure out better talents, besides the talent up there.

Don't you just want to trade places with me? Puh-lease.. puh-lease.. Ü

On saturday, my batchmate Ramon is having a bday party at his house. I'll bet there will be inuman and lots more things.. hahaha. My college barkada's planning to go to Eastwood after.. Probably end up in basement and go dancing till the wee hours of the night.. I fervently hope I won't see someone there. Grr. I already see him everywhere. Sheesh. I don't even know why I'm so mad at him.. Go figure out why for me?

I ended up cooking baked oysters for lunch..:) everyone loved it.. YEAH! NOthing more to blog about.. I still need to finish the NCP crappy thing.

Boohoo for me.. Mommy didn't call.. Its okay.. She called me last wednesday? Yeah.. My friends were laughing at me.. I talk weird to my mom.. I talk to her like she's my friend.. I laugh a lot.. hehehe. Yeah.. I love talking to my mom. MIss you..:) My brother by the way looks like a fish. Seriously. I have no idea why he poses like that in his pics.. Go figure. hahaha. Is it the new "angas" look? Weiiird.

productivity my a**..

2004-08-16T02:56:03Z

I will be productive today..

Yep.

Study. Study. Study.

Read that damn big a** medical surgical nursing book.

I should finally understand what oxygenation is all about. Read. Read. Read.

YEAH RIGHT.

Going to the delivery room..:)

GO find me.

WHAT?! hahaha.

Weirdo. Wippee.:)

I will now take a bath.

Still have make-up to put on. Sheesh. I don't get it.. why do nurses have to put make up? Sheesh. I just had my face cleaned at the derma for THE VERY FIRST TIME. It hurts like someone just scrapped all of your face off. HOT DAMN. No pain, no gain as they say. What is up with having to get your beauty to a better start. Sheesh. Being beautiful is painful. The process that is. Imagine, liposuction, face lifts.. nose lifts.. SHEESH. What happened to au naturelle??

okay back to productivity.:)

I will study for my test on friday.

Oxygenation, here i come.

Labo as hell. Corny as hell.

What has gotten into me.

Go figure it out for me please?

babay.:)

yay..:)

2004-08-15T09:56:10Z

new layout..:) simple and yet.. simple. Mwahaha. don't have much to write.. I still have to study. STRESS.

hmmm

2004-08-06T12:31:52Z

okay, i don't even update here. Hahaha. Like anyone ever visits. Sheesh. Depressing naman ng past blogs ko. Okay erase that.:) I'm a happier puppy now.:) Http://wink.prinsesa.com